Ryan’s big conversation

While I was at work Ryan wanted to talk to me about some stuff. He said that he wanted to be more open in our friendship. He said that he was worried about what I would say about things sometimes and he did not want to be totally open with me. I told him I was happy that he wanted to be more open. He is my best friend and he is important to me.

He told me that him and Ryley had planned their wedding out. I was going to be his best man. And he said I was the only non-blood relative who would have been invited. That was pretty cool. He said that he really values what I have to say and looks for acceptance from me.

We talked about me not being outwardly emotional. He said that I always am the tough guy who plays through injuries and who is always the tough guy when it comes to bad or sad situations. Sort of a man’s man. I pondered outloud to him that maybe I do that because I am over compensating for being gay and that is what gets me to make people not think that I am a big Mo.

He said he knew I would always be there for him and I proved it on July first. That was when I went there to be with him when he got word about Ryley. He also said I am honest, trustworthy, and a really good person.

I hope this helps our friendship get stronger and closer.

We spent most of the day talking off and on between us having to do some work. I mainly was working on getting some of the bugs taken care of as they were coming in because I wanted to have them all done. But I was having a problem with a bug where there was a REO property address that would disappear in certain circumstances, but not others.

After work I went to Jon’s house and watched the boys for him. They had to go to the kids’ school for the parent-teacher conferences. It was also Jon’s birthday today. The boys and I played some poker. They are pretty good poker players for being under six years old. I helped Justin win the whole thing.

Jon and I watched CSI when he got home and after he looked at the code where the property address is missing. Everything was looking like it should be working. After watching some TV with Jon I headed home for the evening.