Monday Night OTEP Training

Today was pretty busy with training, work, calls, we didn’t have any down time before it was time for Monday Night Training. I was excited for training tonight because I was going to get to attend OTEP with the reserves. I still feel like I am part of the group, however, at the same time I don’t feel like I am part of them anymore.

I really don’t know where I stand with everything. I don’t know if I will be a reserve again or not. I don’t know. Part of me hopes that I get to be a reserve again for another month of two just to sort of have a time period where I know what is coming and I have a chance to say goodbye in a less abrupt way.

What would be interesting though is how the guys on my old shift would feel about me coming back. Specifically, the guys involved in that stuff I wrote about from about a month ago. I figure if I do come back I will go to each one of those guys and talk with them and let them know that if they would not be comfortable working on the crew anymore that I would understand and that I would help them get to a different crew. Or maybe I just wouldn’t be made a crew leader and it would all be a moot point.

But for anyone who knows me I am so forgiving, even when I have been greatly wronged by someone, that it probably will not be a problem. I think I am pretty good about keeping work and private life separated and that allows me to work with people who I sometimes have a problem with personally.