Body for Life Done… Again

This morning started out okay. John was giving me some crap about my shirt bring wrinkled. I laughed it off. We went on to our rig checks. Following rig checks we go onto cleaning. Normally I sweep and then clean the front bathroom and sometimes the back bathroom. No one has ever had to tell me to do anything in terms of the chores because I keep on top of it. I know as the new guy I get the jobs no one else wants, so rather than trying to skate on it, I just go do it.

As I was walking in the station from the bay Keeton told John “tell the probie to clean the toilets”. John then repeated it. That made me mad as I feel low as it is, but to be told to do something I have been doing for a couple weeks without being told, I felt like I was just being ridiculed. As I cleaned no one on the shift helped out. I ended up doing all the chores except for emptying the trash. I was livid about this. Every other shift helps out with the chores. It took me an extra forty minutes to get done.

I was very mad and I just didn’t feel like talking to anyone today. John realized that I was mad as I was leaving he stopped me to talk. I wouldn’t tell him what was wrong. I know as the new guy I am going to get crap and I am sure others have gotten it worse than me. I didn’t want to tell him because it would feel like I am whining. When you take what was said on the face it really wasn’t bad. But because of who it came from, my friends, and the fact that no one helped just didn’t sit well. I left without telling him.

I went to the rec center to weigh in. It was the final weigh in of this Body for Life period. I lost twenty eight pounds in this period and I am down sixty-five pounds total since January. I was disappointed. This last week at the fire department has been horrible. I have not had the time to work out like I need to. My eating has not been the greatest either. But I am still losing weight and that is important. I have a ways to go before I hit my goal, but I am still working my way there. I have seen a lot of loss and it feel good.